So as an update from last week, we went and had an ultrasound done. The baby looks good except for the bowel area. The bowel gave off a little extra pizzazz to the machine so it means there could be a problem as this is an indicator of DS. So super scary. We opted for a non-invasive blood test called HARMONY which we will hopefully get NEGATIVE results by the end of this week or early next week. I am still a nervous wreck. However, the doctor asked me if I had any bleeding during the first three months and indeed, I had. I had some light spotting for at least like 3 weeks during the first 2-3 months. He said that the echogenecity that the ultrasound was picking up was probably from the baby swallowing blood. Well that is ok with me! However, on the actual transcript of my test results, it says that this increases my odds by 6.4. I suppose I should be grateful that this doesn’t increase my odds to 6.4? Either way, I am still fairly scared and uncertain.
However, everything changed when they told me we would be having a …… GIRL! I am overjoyed! I wanted a little girl so so badly! I am trying to stay positive and I can tell you right now I will be doing cartwheels (or at least trying to) when I hear that the test results came back negative. The only difference between an amnio and the HARMONY is that the amnio can say definitely YES or definitely NO about DS. HARMONY can only tell you definitely YES and PROBABLY NO. However, it will decrease my risk to <1:10,000 which is absolutely fine with me. I’m keeping my fingers crossed and counting the days till I hear the good news.
Even with this potential dark cloud hanging over us, Hubby and I are very excited. I finally feel like a mother-to-be and not just some parasite’s host. As weird and heartless as that sounds, that is exactly how I felt until they told me it was actually a she and I saw her kicking and moving around on the screen. I also got a really great US profile shot with a tiny little ski-jump nose and her little hand in the picture. I also got to see her heart, stomach, brain, and her little bones. She is about 6 oz (probably a little more this week) and very active. I’ve also started to feel her! It is a strange feeling and it is hard for me to decipher what is baby and what is gas or what have you. However, my sister and Hubby BOTH swear they felt her this week. I don’t think I’ve ever seen Dave so excited. As soon as he felt her, he texted like half his friends! It was actually kind of cute.
So before I announce that I’m having a girl and I announce what we plan to call her (so far), I am going to wait until the results. We would like to have a very small gender reveal party for our immediate family and close friends as soon as we hear. I wanted to have a party this weekend if we found out the good news by the end of the week, but my sister is in Kentucky until Sunday night and I don’t want to do it without her. She already knows, of course, but I would love for her to be there.
I am also super excited to go shopping now that I know what I’m going to have. Registering will be fun too, but I am going to wait until my sister comes home to go with me for that! I finally feel “normal” and I think I will feel AMAZING once I know my little girl is going to be healthy.
If you could send positive vibes our way, I would be very grateful.
Love, as always,